Verse one
It follows me in the dark
It's unafraid of my spark
It haunts me always
It's on my mind in all ways
How do I hide from the one
Who chains me down so I can't run
It gets in my head
Alone I lay in bed
Battling the one
From who I can't run
"Make the cut deep and sleep
Don't worry if it's too deep
It'll be okay if you don't wake
It'll be better for everyone's sake
Overwhelm yourself with bills
Down the bottle of pills
End it now
You know how
DO it right this time
Don't even write another line"
Chorus
This monster named suicide
Knows all from which I hide
This monster named suicide
Knows how to disrupt my minds tide
This monster named suicide
Does not care how long I've cried
This monster named suicide
Has taken all of my pride
This monster named suicide
Has taken me on one painful ride
... to say the least ...
Verse two
I won't let you in tonight
I will, this time, really fight
Not that I haven't fought
This time I'll run, not get caught
Here it comes as the sun sets
Over mountains comes it's nets
I turn to run away
Just as I hear it say
"You can't run from me
Oh small human, can't you see?
I'm bigger than you
There's nothing you can do
Submit dumb human
Think you're superhuman?
No, you stupid creature
Let me be your teacher
First lesson of your life
Take the blade, take the knife
Press it to your skin
Let me win, let me win
Let me win!"
Chorus
This monster named suicide
Knows all from which I hide
This monster named suicide
Knows how to disrupt my minds tide
This monster named suicide
Does not care how long I've cried
This monster named suicide
Has taken all of my pride
This monster named suicide
Has taken me on one painful ride
... to say the least ...
Verse Three
I wish I could actually say
I never tried to escape the next day
But as hard as it is to admit
I lost count of the times I said "screw it!"
Told the monster named suicide
"Take me, I can no longer hide
The pains too much
I feel weak as such
A person like me
Can no longer see
Show me the way
How to not see another day"
But, no longer will I run
I have now a Spirit-Raygun
I can now tell that monster named suicide
"You can run, but from this gun, you can't hide"
The answer to how
I'll tell you now
I had to make taking my life
No longer an option, threw away that knife
You CAN survive, even THRIVE
Just stand up to your monster
Find new thoughts to foster
If you need a reason to stand
Let me give you a hand
If you believe no one cares at all
Then maybe you need someone new to call
Meaning, you haven't met everyone yet
You haven't explored every safety net
Point, if you can't see
You're enough to be
A valid reason to survive
A valid reason to thrive
Then find something outside yourself
And, at long last, put suicide on the shelf
You are worth it to live another day
You are worth it, or I'd not say
Live on my fellow suffering beings
Survive, thrive, hear the heavens sing
Listen to how the heavens sing
Rejoice
You are the broken
Rejoice
Be the spoken
Rejoice
Don't give up your life so fast
Rejoice
If you desire, leave your pain in the past
Leave your pain in the past
Rejoice
Finally at long last
The monster named suicide
Becomes a smaller tide
The waves diminish
And as you did wish
You've been freed
You've been freed
You're free
Chorus
This monster named suicide
Knows all from which I hide
This monster named suicide
Knows how to disrupt my minds tide
This monster named suicide
Does not care how long I've cried
This monster named suicide
Has taken all of my pride
This monster named suicide
Has taken me on one painful ride
... to say the least ...
But now, I am free
Free to be who I wanna be
Free
At long last
I'm free!
This song was written by me, Ashley Michelle Hard on 11-19-2021
Thank you for reading this today 💞
Lyrics by Ashley Michelle Hard 